Never sure what to think

I reach out a lot to other people. My energy lunges at others and says, "Hey, you seem like a cool/nice/neat/deep/friendly person, do you want to be my friend? Will you be my friend?"

It says, "What is going on inside you, what do you think/believe/feel/perceive/love/hate/enjoy?"

What would an octopus with 100 arms be called? Whatever its name, it is me. My arms are all over the place, everywhere, in so many different areas, trying to draw people in, letting them know they are special and important.

My dream life would be in constant interaction with others, enjoying others in conversation about them and about what makes them happy. I am not so pompous to suggest I wouldn't want at least a little bit about me.

Constant is the key word, I want constant interaction with others. I wish more people would pick up the phone and call me, just shoot me an email, invite me out to lunch/coffee/dinner, instead of me always inviting others. It is rare that someone else initiates an interaction with me. I can count two - three people right now.

I spend a lot of time asking people about themselves. I don't think people notice. I don't really care if they notice. At least not all the time. But I digress...

Why don't others reach out to me? Am I flawed? Is there something wrong with me? It makes me sad. I fantasize that in another place, maybe the people would be different. It makes me sad that it has to be a fantasy.

PS I love the people in my life, I love them lots. I just want more. More of the ones I love and more people to love. Is that so wrong? Someone I love called me insatiable. Sorry...