Europe tomorrow!

I have no idea what happened over the last two weeks in terms of blogging - on another note my poetry has not been flying either. Just part of it all I guess. Just part of how life flows. I have been conscious and life has been good. Just not a consistent blogger and I am okay with that =)

Anyway, I am here writing and I am leaving for my first ever European trip tomorrow! I can hardly believe it. I have everything pulled together and organized and I am so excited for it. I am nervous too. I am nervous that a great experience is about to happen and something scary will stop it from. Not that I really believe that, I don't, but a part of me is nervous about it. So, please say a prayer for me or send me positive thoughts or whatever.

I begin my trip at 7:55 AM tomorrow morning and arrive in Amsterdam on Sunday morning, 7:50 AM their time. Woo! That is going to be crazy. I really have NO idea what to expect but I am excited. And lets face it I am looking forward to partaking in the weed. That will be cool. Sometimes when I smoke weed I feel guilty. No guilt this coming week!

Speaking of, I smoked with some friends tonight for the first time in a while and it was cool and I did not feel guilt and I told Beth. She was okay with it but said she would prefer if I did not smoke regularly and I agree that is best. Mainly b/c I don't think pot fits in well with my spiritual growth. Although, while stoned tonight I was able to put some really cool stuff into words, the goal is how can I do that while sober. How can I be fully me, absent of drugs and be flowing in a positive love place like I was tonight. B/c I can walk around me w/o drugs all the time and I want to feel the flowing love all the time. I can't always be doing drugs. There are negative side effects that I don't want to experience (procrastination, cutoff from some feelings, cutoff from the energy of others, etc). So, a couple of times a year, with Beth knowing when and with whom and I am cool.

So, anyway, I am going to be hanging out with friends of friends who seem very cool. Plus, if I am seeing love and the best in everyone I am confident they will be great! I am going to go to coffee houses, spinning classes at a Dutch gym, see the Ann Frank house, ride around, go to museums, hopefully some clubs, write some poetry. Wow, I am excited.

Then, Beth and I travel to Switzerland together for my second week. While there we are going to be staying most of the time in a small town called Grindewald in the Swiss mountains. But, when I say small they have shops, restaurants, downhill and cross country skiing, tobaggen runs, a train to the highest station in the world, dogsledding, a snow festival...kind of a lot of stuff for a "small" town, eh? Plus, while we are in Switzerland my best friend will be there for work one night. We are going to meet him out for dinner and I am so excited - I have not seen him since the summer.

And the whole second week will just be spent loving and in love with Beth! Wow!

So, a couple of things to keep in mind. One, is to stay in the present moment and let things unfold. Smoking will help this but focusing on the breath and occasional meditations will strengthen my inner observer. Next is to just love Beth and focus on everything we have, the gifts we have, and not on what is missing. Also to keep in mind is take some journal notes, at least a couple of bullet points each day. That will help to increase my conscious awareness and embed the trip in my memory.

I pray to all that is good and holy that positive energy and intention and people surround Beth and I on our entire trip. See you on the flip side!

Signed lovingly, Deep Romantic Boy