The last two weeks I have been in a down and depressed cycle and I am reporting today that I feel better and am back on a little happier cycle.

Life is plugging along, there are good things, and things I wish could be different, and some things that just are, and things that are boring, and things that are fun, and things that are frustrating.

When I am down, I tend to notice more the things I wish were different and I tend to focus on the frustrations or the boring times (work is slow right now).

When I am up I tend to focus and think about the good things and the fun things.

I have noticed that my moods can fluctuate significantly within a day, week or month, depending on my focus of attention. I can experience deep sadness one minute and high happiness the next. This is pretty common with Type 4's on the Enneagram. I also notice, and Beth confirmed, that I have a cycle where I lull into a depression every 4 - 6 weeks and then pull myself out of it.

I have also been thinking in the big picture of how where I am fits into where I have been and where I am going. I have some sense of the path traveled, I have some ideas and hopes for the path ahead, but I come up empty on the grand purpose of it all. So, I try not to think about that too much.

And well, that is kind of life. For me. And I imagine a lot of other people. So, whether you are focusing on the good, lamenting the bad, lost on your path or striding ahead with a purpose in mind, or maybe you just don't care, I wish you the best.

Make it a great day!