Most days

Most days, I battle against my natural inclinations to sleep a lot, lie around, eat unhealthy foods and watch lots of TV.

Most days, I would rather sleep-in past 10, but I wake up at 5.

Most days, I would rather be lazy and lie around on the couch all day, but I exercise and go to work and clean the house and do many other non-lazy things.

Most days, I would rather eat, and eat, and eat unhealthy, fatty foods, but I count my calories instead.

Most days, I would rather flip channels and mindlessly watch TV, but I read instead.

Is it any wonder why we don't have cable, why we don't keep fatty foods in the house and why I set a cell phone alarm to go off at the same time as my alarm clock?

A big part of my life is spent battling against the fat, lazy and depressed person I could easily become. Or, that I already was. Or, still am.

Is the person I am only a reaction against the person I don't want to become? Or a reaction against the me I am that I don't like?

Most days, I am unsure of which me has won.