By the way

I took the GRE last weekend and scored a 590 on the verbal section and a, a....what did I score on the quantitative, a 570, I think. Or was it a 540. Hmm, maybe that shows how much it matters.

It is strange, I was so worried and invested a lot of time and energy into preparing to take the GRE, and now that I have taken it, it seems like no big deal. I guess the scores are decent but not great. And, they seem somewhat meaningless. Like what does a 590 say about me or my intelligence or my value as a person. It is almost a let-down, as if I expected a huge emotional uplift after taking the test.

I don't know if the scores will be good enough to get me into grad school. One of the programs I want to apply to doesn't have a requirement to take the GRE and the other program requires a minimum index score combining your GRE and undergrad GPA; my score is .10 lower than the minimum. I believe my GRE scores are decent, but my undergrad GPA is so low that just decent GRE scores are not enough to help me meet the minimum index score. Kind of disappointing.

I may still apply to both programs, even though I don't meet the minimum requirements for one, and see what happens. Until then I am comfortably numb regarding the whole affair. Weird...